I have read alot about the Keto Diet, and have seen alot of results on Reddit by people at least close to my size. Truthfully, my priorities have been skewed. I have spent so much more time concerned with dating and thinking about others, that I haven't been taking care of myself. I told myself after the divorce that I would remain single and focus on my weight loss goals, but alas, it hasn't happened that way. How could I possibly expect to take care of a girlfriend right now, when I can't even take care of myself. I think its time to step back and remember that I can't hope to find someone until I'm truly happy with myself, and right now I just make myself nauseous. Not only because I'm still a fatass, but I haven't followed through with ANYTHING I said I would.
At this point I'm surprised I have any readers left. I havent been logging my meals, because, well, I havent been eating right. Maybe logging my meals regardless of healthiness of said meals will help me see exactly where I'm getting the calories, and it will shame me. I have been trying to make good decisions when eating, but I really need to log this stuff.
I'm sure anything I say at this point will be taken with a grain of salt until I actually start using my food and exercise journal. So, I wont make you any promises. Ill just let actions speak at this point. Hopefully if you are one of the few that have stuck with me through the months that I dont blog, will see a renewed interest in my blog. I know its hard to put your faith into something when the person asking for help isnt showing any type of will or determination, and for that I am sorry.
I am going to drop my dating life for now, and just worry about me, nobody else to care for except me.
Other than that, there are no real updates to life. Still just working and trying to make a living. I do have a few updated pictures for you guys though.
Oh yea, I almost forgot, I got a cat for company. Her name is Melody. I got her when she was just under 6 weeks old, and its amazing how much company she is giving me.
I hope you guys will check out my facebook page. I havent really been video blogging much but I have kind of been thinking about starting it again. My mind has been nagging me about it.
Please keep reading and checking in. I post small updates when i change anything including my food exercise diary. So, if you are subscribed, you may see a few very small posts from my phone.I am also going to add a public link to my Picasa web album so I can stop posting a bunch of pictures in my thread as suggested by another reader. It seems to be a nuisance to some to have to scroll through the pictures to get to the text.
Ill try to get this set up today.
RJ, just showed the wife a picture of you to give her some idea of what size you are & how far you have to go..
ReplyDeleteShe said, (as a heart nurse) that she treats folk your size & there is a way back for you "currently", but having looked at how much fast food shit you eat was less than impressed...
especially the fizzy drinks (not good in terms of sugar & bone stripping properties, the lack of veg in your diet, the constant stream of fast food low quality oil you must be ingesting.
Like me she stated that rehab & exercise include parts of the body not afflicted by damage self inflicted or otherwise, & that upper body strength go's to play a big part in propelling a runner forward...
You have attended workouts in the past so you know a bit as to what you CAN DO yourself, on your own in a room without specialist equipment.
a fat person DOES have more calorific requirements however the need to be a "bit hungry" to convince the body to burn some extra energy slowly is required, basic baked potatoes & sweetcorn, spinach mornay with a tater etc...
You need to cut that easy to drive to fast food out of your life & only have it as a treat from time to time! ..not every frigging day as part of your convenience food lifestyle.
Energy drinks are a falsehood, choices like your Mountain dew need to considered (did you think when you ordered it the other week)? as that's a whacking percentage of empty intake!
do it for a week & kickstart yourself.
the other thing she said & I kind of agree here, if you can't be arsed to filling your blog & food details daily you will never get to where you want & need to be.
In a food or exercise scenario it's an important mental & physical barrier to stick to & chart, yours is full of holes.
Pull your finger out & kindly prove us wrong.
Gus